Even scientists cannot explain the chemical reaction that happens between you and I.
December 2009
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Packing
Clothes tumble in the laundry while the list of things that must be done tumble in my head. I’m packing up to visit someone that has recently taken my heart by storm. In addition, I am also packing back up for school. In many ways, I feel like I’m packing up in more than the sense of folding clothes and throwing them into a suitcase.
When I came home, I wasn’t looking forward to the hours I would spend wishing that I was somewhere else. I also wasn’t looking forward to facing the guy that always had a strong hold on my heart. It was one of those complicated situations that never seemed to resolve itself. Every time that I thought we were through, something would always happen. This break, it was clear that things were over. It wasn’t vicious or cruel. It was just a friendly realization that we were finally moving on from one another and if we happen to reconnect in the future, fine. If not, that’s okay too. Consider the situation thrown into a suitcase. It’s done. It’s packed up.
As I pack for a new adventure, I wonder what will happen. I’m so into this guy, but I can’t shake a fear I get sometimes that things are working out too well and that I’ll find a way to mess things up. I try not to dwell on such things, but I always get a little uneasy when everything falls into place. I wait for Karma to real her ugly head and snatch the happiness away from me to keep a state of emotional homeostasis.
But, for the most part, I feel bliss. I’m ready to move on and pack up my things and find myself in someone else’s heart and arms. I’ve been counting down the days for this trip, and in many ways, I’ve been waiting for this guy. I had a crush on him in elementary school and I remember hoping that someday things would work out between us. I didn’t know that he liked me as well at the time. Now, ten years later we are finally starting something. Nothing is “facebook official,” but it’s clear that something is definitely going on. It’s strange because that “someday” that I had always hoped for is finally here.
We stay up talking late into the night. I wake up no sooner than noon each day; however, I wouldn’t change a thing. You make me smile so much and my heart always perks up when it hears your voice. I can’t wait to see you. It’s going to make my entire break.
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May you find serenity and tranquility
in a world you may not always understand.
May the pain you have known
and the conflict you have experienced
give you the strength to walk through life
facing each new situation with courage and optimism.
Always know that there are those
whose love and understanding will always be there,
even when you feel most alone.
May a kind word,
a reassuring touch,
and a warm smile
be yours every day of your life,
and may you give these gifts
as well as receive them.
May the teachings of those you admire
become part of you,
so that you may call upon them.
Remember, those whose lives you have touched
and who have touched yours
are always a part of you,
even if the encounters were less than you would have wished.
It is the content of the encounter
that is more important than its form.
May you not become too concerned with material matters,
but instead place immeasurable value
on the goodness in your heart.
Find time in each day to see beauty and love
in the world around you.
Realize that what you feel you lack in one regard
you may be more than compensated for in another.
What you feel you lack in the present
may become one of your strengths in the future.
May you see your future as one filled with promise and possibility.
Learn to view everything as a worthwhile experience.
May you find enough inner strength
to determine your own worth by yourself,
and not be dependent
on another’s judgment of your accomplishments.
May you always feel loved.”
” — Sandra Sturtz Hauss (via constantflux) (via quote-book)Since being home I have:
1. Read a book
2. Broken up with someone
3. Fallen for someone new
4. Stayed up late talking on the phone every night
5. Hung out with my best friend on multiple occasions
6. Went to Toys R Us at midnight
7. Bought/made gifts for my close friends
8. Gone to the beach
9. Wished on a star
10. Smiled, and smiled often.
“Well, it’s just that you make my day/night when we talk or even text. I love hearing your voice and I CANNOT wait to see you. I don’t wanna sound psycho but you’re all I think about and I just can’t wait till the 30th!” - Sent to me via text message
I’m really thinking this is the start of something special. Our beginning is like something ripped from a movie. My heart goes crazy whenever we talk. I can’t seem to stop smiling when we are on the phone. You’re a chance I can’t pass up. You could be a love I never forget.
Play
Drunk dial me, text me, whatever. I’m there for you and I always love to hear your voice.
Play
“Car overheats
Jump out of my seat
On the side of the highway baby
Our road is long
Your hold is strong
Please don’t ever let go” —Secret, Maroon 5
Jump out of my seat
On the side of the highway baby
Our road is long
Your hold is strong
Please don’t ever let go” —Secret, Maroon 5
